Hey y'all, I'm Tae, and today I'm about to share the most life-changing moment I've ever experienced. For the past few videos, I've been taking you on this journey with me - this crazy, vulnerable journey of asking my best friend, someone I met on TikTok, to have my baby. And today, I finally got my answer.
It happened in the early hours of the morning when my phone rang. I could hear party music and voices in the background, which honestly made my heart sink because I thought she was tipsy and about to let me down easy. But instead of rejection, I heard the most beautiful word I could have imagined: "Yes." She said yes, y'all. I'm going to be a mom, and she's going to be my baby mama.
I cried when she told me. I literally broke down because I wasn't expecting that call, wasn't recording, wasn't prepared for the flood of emotions that hit me. This woman just changed my entire world with one word, and the relief I felt was overwhelming. But here's the thing - it's not just a simple yes. There are conditions, conversations we need to have, and steps we need to take together.
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See, from our previous talks, I already knew she wasn't trying to have a baby outside of marriage, and she definitely doesn't want to be just a surrogate. She wants something real, something meaningful, which means we need to explore what this could look like as a romantic relationship. We need to go on our first actual date, which sounds weird as hell when you think about it because we've been everywhere together, done everything together - just never romantically.
That's where I'm struggling right now, and honestly, I need y'all's help. How do you transition from being best friends to potential lovers when you already know each other inside and out? How do you create that romantic spark when you've already shared so much intimacy without crossing that final line? Because let me be real - we've had moments, we've had chemistry, but we never went all the way, and now that this is on the table, everything feels different.
The stakes are higher now. She's not just my best friend anymore - she could be the mother of my child, my wife, my everything. Her importance in my life has multiplied by three, and all I want to do is make her happy, give her whatever she wants, because she's about to give me the greatest gift imaginable.
Here's my plan for the next six months, and I'm laying it all out because I want y'all to hold me accountable. The first three months are about us living our best lives together - going on vacation, dating, figuring out this romantic side of our relationship while I prepare my body and mind for what's coming. Then, for the three months after that, I'm cutting out all drinking and smoking - yeah, I'm talking about the 420 too - because I want to use my own eggs, and I want to give my baby the best possible chance at a healthy start.
My goal is to have this baby by the end of this year or early next year, and just saying that out loud makes me emotional because for so long, I didn't think I deserved this kind of happiness.
I know some of y'all might be thinking that needing someone this much isn't healthy, and I get that perspective, but let me give you the full context. For two years, I was completely isolated in Delaware - no friends nearby, no family I could actually touch and hug, just me and my thoughts in a place that felt like exile. That kind of isolation does something to your mental health that's hard to explain unless you've lived it.
I convinced myself I didn't need anybody, built up these walls so high that even when I was crumbling inside, I kept pretending everything was fine. I was literally putting on a dating show while dying inside, sick to my stomach with loneliness and depression, but too proud to admit it. And when I finally started reaching out, when I finally got vulnerable about what I was going through, most people had their own lives and their own problems. They couldn't be there for me the way I needed, and I don't blame them for that.
But she was different. When I was at my absolute lowest, when I was so far down I couldn't see light anywhere, she saw something in me worth saving. She stuck with me through my darkest moments, through times when I stopped talking to her because of my own issues, through everything. Nobody has ever seen light in me like that except my parents, and even that felt diminished when they found out I was a lesbian.
Last year was the worst year of my life. I spent every single day wanting to give up, drowning in debt, feeling trapped in a situation I couldn't escape. I had moved my whole life to Delaware for someone else's situation, changed everything about my world to be closer to their family, and when things didn't work out the way they were supposed to, I was the one left holding the bag. The bills, the isolation, the depression - it all piled up until I couldn't breathe.
But look at me now. From that dark place where I couldn't see a way out, I'm sitting here talking about having a baby with someone who loves me. I'm talking about marriage, about building a family, about taking control of my life instead of just surviving it. That's not just growth - that's a complete transformation, and it happened because someone believed in me when I couldn't believe in myself.
I've been part of so many children's lives over the years, but never had one of my own. I've watched everyone around me experience the blessing of parenthood while I stood on the sidelines, and now it's finally my turn. The fact that she can give me this blessing, that she wants to create life with me, makes her the most important person in my world besides God.
I know there are no guarantees. Things could go wrong, plans could change, but right now I'm manifesting and praying that this is my path. In three months, I'll get a consultation about my eggs, start the medical process, make sure everything is lined up properly. We'll take that vacation, explore this new dynamic between us, and hopefully figure out how to blend the friendship we have with the romance we're building.
The hardest part is that I've always wanted to fall in love with my best friend, and I already love her to death. I've just been scared to fall IN love with her because I've been hurt before, and losing her would destroy me. But I can't live in fear anymore. I can't wait for life to happen to me - I need to grab it with both hands and create the future I want.
So here's where I need y'all to come through for me in the comments. How do you romance someone you already know everything about? What do you do for a first date with someone you've already done everything with except the intimate stuff? Do I try to be all romantic with dinner and flowers, or will she just laugh at me because she knows me too well for that kind of performance?
This is uncharted territory for me, but it's exactly what I've always wanted. I want to build something beautiful with my best friend, create a family with the person who saw me at my worst and chose to love me anyway. Y'all have been on this journey with me from the beginning, so I need you to help me figure out how to get to the next chapter, because I'm not stopping here. I can't stop here. This is just the beginning of the life I'm finally brave enough to live.
