Hey my beloved fam! Today, while I'm enjoying this seafood meal, I just wanted to share a few things straight from the heart.
Y’all, I just realized I haven’t seen Sam’s World around. Have y’all seen her? I don’t know if I just haven’t looked hard enough, because you know, her and Llip were like best friends. They were *really* close. I’m sure she’s hurting deeply. I know she’s going through a lot emotionally. And then there’s Llip’s daughter too… but I don’t want to talk about that right now.
But listen, there was another young lady on TikTok named Big Lady Lax or Lex—something like that—who just passed away. She was super young, barely in her 20s, and it seems like it was a car accident. I honestly don’t know much about her personally, but I did reshare her video because someone out there knows her. She was known online too. It's so heartbreaking when stuff like this happens, especially when you’ve watched someone’s content and now they’re just... gone. It’s really hard.
Oh, did y’all see the story about that man? I know there’s a bunch of videos about it, but did y’all catch the one about the guy whose mom was waiting for him to get out of prison? That was her son—he had been locked up. She was waiting for him, even had a welcome home party planned. Do you know he ended up killing his own mom and his little brother? That same night, or maybe the day after the party. Apparently, they had an argument. He murdered both of them.
You can probably imagine how it went down. The son… well, his mom had been spending time with his little brother while he was in prison, and maybe they argued over that. She seemed like the kind of woman who spoke her mind, like, “Don’t play with me, ‘cause I’m gonna say what I gotta say.” Y’all know the type I’m talking about, right? That no-nonsense kind of person. And clearly, the son didn’t like that.
He really killed both his mama and his little brother. Maybe he went to hit his mom, and the brother tried to jump in and stop it, and he snapped—like, “I ain’t havin’ this, I’ll kill both of y’all.” Just crazy. Crazy and sad.
Whew, I’m all outta food. That’s it. It’s gone. Oh, it was so good! Now I’m just gonna roll on up outta here. Rollin’. Rollin’. Rollin’ out.
Hey y’all, take some time today and read Psalm 17. I love Psalms so much because it’s really filled with King David’s songs. So many of David’s songs and his prayers to God—prayers asking for protection, for covering under God's right hand, for safety from his enemies and from those who came against him and talked about him.
And let me tell y’all, David did *not* play. He said things like, “Lord, let my enemies eat poison and let their babies eat it too.” I was like, “Oh, David.” I said, “Oh, David.” He even said he wanted them punished through the third, fourth, and fifth generation of their children.
And I was like, he’s not joking. Usually when I read Psalms, I like to read it as if I’m placing myself into the words. I don’t know if that makes sense to y’all. I read it like it’s a personal letter written to me, or like I’m the one saying the words.
Does anybody know what I mean? I’m not sure. But anyway, when David got to that part about kids and placing judgment on children, I just couldn’t do it. I said, “Well, David, I’mma let you have that part. David, I’mma let you hold onto that ‘cause I can’t.”
I promise y’all, when I read the Bible, I cry. I just can’t speak that part out loud. I can’t say it the way I want to say it like I’m speaking to my own enemy. I just can’t, because I feel like if someone did me wrong, I don’t think their children or someone else should suffer because of what *they* did—even though I know it happens. You see it happen—people do wrong and it comes back around to their kids or loved ones. Sometimes life just works that way, but I don’t want it to. I don’t want to be the reason it happens.
Like David said, he didn’t do anything wrong. He never sought revenge. He didn’t chase after them or try to get back at them. And I don’t either. I don’t try to get revenge. I don’t try to speak bad on anybody. Every time someone hurts me, y’all, or lies on me, I promise you—I go to God.
I go to God and I start praying for them. I pray for their salvation. I pray for them to do right. I pray for blessings for them. And I never speak bad or curse them out or anything like that. And y’all, that’s how you should keep it. You don’t need to go tit for tat with your enemies like, “I’m gonna do this,” or “I’m gonna get back at them.” Just let God handle it. And just pray for them. Okay? That’s all you need to do.
I do that with every person who’s ever hurt me. I seriously just pray over it because what else can you do? Yeah, it hurts. Of course it does. It doesn’t feel good. You might be sitting there like, why would someone do that? Some of the things people do... I’m just like, why? What in the world would make them act that way or respond like that? And you don’t understand it. But it’s not for you to understand. You know what I mean? It’s just one of those things.
But you know what? Every time someone does something to me, I promise you—I see something happen to them. You see their life just... you’ll see their life go completely downhill, like nothing ever works out for them.
Have y’all ever noticed that? God will literally let you see the life of those who wronged you—not your enemies, but the people who really did you wrong. He will let you watch it unfold. And you’ll be like, wow.
That’s why it’s so important to know how to walk through this life. You have to be mindful of how you treat people and what you say to them. You might think you’re getting away with something when you’re talking down on people or doing shady stuff, and you think your life is all good—but you don’t even know who you’re messing with.
You don’t know what you’re saying to somebody. You don’t know how you’re hurting someone. You don’t know how it’s affecting them. You just don’t know. Even the thought of starting to be mean or sneaky about something—you can’t be sneaky, because God sees everything.
There’s no being sneaky or thinking you can feel some way toward somebody and think no one’s gonna find out. Listen, God sees it. He knows it. And your heart—let me tell you something. My heart is so pure, it will tell on all your lies. It’ll tell if you’re lying, if your heart is good, if it’s rotten, if it’s all of that.
So you just have to be careful, okay? Because if your heart’s not right, I’m sorry, but God will know. You can’t hide that from Him. No—you think you’re hiding it. You might hide it from that person, but you’re definitely not hiding it from God.
Hey, who are you facing? That person or God? At the end of the day, you’ll be facing God. And He’ll have the final word. So you might as well do right and stop being mean to people, because that’s why your life is the way it is now. Your life is how it is because sometimes you need to sit back and think: what have you done? What have you done to people? You need to understand how you treat people. How do you treat those around you? Do you treat others the way you want to be treated?
You need to start thinking about stuff like that when you meditate. Think about things like that. Okay? And I know it’s not easy, y’all. It’s not easy. When you’re living this life and people are messing with you—it’s not easy, baby. You’ll be like, “Oh, I want to clap back. I want to clap back, Lord. I want to respond.”
But I can’t do that. It’s hard. It’s really hard. You’ll be like, “Oh my gosh.” Or sometimes you want to say something a certain way. But I always try to say things in a way that doesn’t really hurt the person.
But maybe it still does. I don’t know. But I say it in a way—I’m not gonna call you names. I’m not gonna do that. I’ll do it respectfully. You know what I mean? Respectfully. Let me say this. Let me make my point. That’s just who I am.
I don’t hold anything in. If I want to tell you something, I’m gonna tell you before I lay my head on that pillow. Lay my head on that pillow. I’m gonna tell you everything I need to tell you, okay? Because I can’t sleep. I can’t go to sleep without telling you how I feel. I just can’t. I can’t go to sleep. If something is really bothering me, I’ll talk to you that day. I’m sorry.
You’re gonna get talked to that day. That’s just my personality. You’re gonna get talked to that day. I’m gonna get it off my chest, and I’m gonna leave it alone. And my first husband, when he first met me, he couldn’t understand how I was like that. I told him everything.
Everything I needed to say—I didn’t care who I was talking to. I just told you everything, because I didn’t want to sleep on it. And I felt like I had a lighter life because of it. I didn’t have to walk around depressed or keep thinking about stuff. I told you everything—I told you. I didn’t carry it. I didn’t carry it.
So my husband always admired that. He said, “Wow, that’s why you’re not like that.” But he learned that from me because you feel so much better in life. You don’t keep that stuff inside. Just let it go. Let it go. If it bothers you, let that person know immediately—and you’ll be better for it.
Because I’m telling you, when you hold stuff in, you start— I think the enemy starts playing with it. You know? He starts playing with it and makes it worse than what it really, really is. It becomes the devil’s playground, where he starts putting these thoughts in your mind. And it’s not even like that.
It starts to rot and add more to it, turning it into this big huge thing that it never even was. Listen, when I tell somebody something and I need to get it off my chest, I’ll tell you, “But baby, I’ll love you tomorrow. I’ll love you the next minute.”
I don’t hold grudges. I don’t hold grudges. I forgive anybody easily. I give people chance after chance because you know what? God gave me chance after chance. He gives me chance after chance all the time. Because trust me, I’ve done some things—you know, we’ve all done some things. We really have done some things that weren’t right.
And you’re like, “Wow, why’d you say that? Why’d you do that? What were you thinking?” I wouldn’t change anything because I know it made me a better woman in this life. I mean, I really can’t complain about the life I’ve had or the life I’ve been living all these years—these 50 years on this earth.
Like, I couldn’t ask for better, you know? But what I’m trying to say is, I wouldn’t change anything. I wouldn’t change a thing because I know everything we go through in life shapes who we become as we grow up, become adults and everything—because you’ve been through it, baby. You’ve been through it.
And there are things where you’re like, “Okay, I got something to say.” You know what I mean? I got something to say and something to share. And that’s where that wisdom comes in. No matter what anybody thinks—“Oh girl, you can’t…” Your life is a string of pearls of wisdom that you can pass on to somebody else.
Okay? Some things you might say, “Baby, let me just tell you a thing or two.” Okay? Sit down. Sit down right here by mama. Sit right here by mama. Let me tell you something. Always remember to put God first in everything you do. And I’ll see y’all in the next video. Bye-bye.
